The thing about being beautiful (yes, I know I’m beautiful) is that I never know whether a guy is into me because of my face, my ass, or my personality. It’s just a thought I’ve been having a lot lately because well, it’s not often that a guy will just tell me he thinks I’m pretty. It’ll be said in so many indirect messages: buying me a milkshake, driving me home, inviting me to a party, etc etc etc. Very few just tell me they think I’m pretty. I used to be so oblivious, wandering around with all these nice guys telling my friends how nice they were. They'd laugh at me and say, "Jade he thinks you're cute." or "Jade it's because that ass is fat." and I'd laugh nervously because that couldn't be it! That's such a shallow thing. Spending money on someone just based on appearances seemed so silly until it kept happening, over and over and over again. I wish they would just say it, then I’d say “Thank you so much! That’s so sweet of you.” And then he’d say, “I bet you get that all the time.” And I’d giggle because yes I do hear it all the time mostly from my female friends and my mom. Jessie Reyez said in her song "Hard to Love", "I like being ugly, that way if they love me I know that they love me for real," And it’s not even that these guys want to date me. They just like being in my space which I sort of understand, wanting to be around someone that’s nice to look at but I’m not like that. I’m not going to spend my time with a guy just because I enjoy looking at him. I’ll just look at him from across the room until I have something contextual to say. But that’s just me. Song of the Day
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Switches and swings And other childish things Drooping, drop Swaying in the wind Me? Rooted in the ground, my parents Branches swaying To the sky To life’s ever changing winds I’ll name my daughter Willow In honor of my tree it taught me to make the best of the Dirt under me The sky above me Switches and Swings And ropes to climb. ~ Song of the Day |
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