Change is constantly uncomfortable. There's no easy way around it, I've tried. The whole point of it is to break you, grow you, make you stronger. It is pushing, pushing, pushing for more. When I was a child I was devastatingly shy. To the point of nausea and tears. Over the years my mom pushed me to be more. "Here read this scripture for everyone." she'd say at our neighborhood bible study. "You're going to go play on the YMCA basketball team." she'd say as she nudged me out the door. After a time of being "volun-told" to do things and seeing the lesson in them, I began volun-telling myself to do things. "Raise your hand. You know the answer." I'd think in class. "Try out for the track team, you know you're a good athlete." I'd say as I laced up my sneakers. I had found a steady confidence in myself. It got to the point where I was running for class president, and winning! I learned that trying and pushing and jumping to grow and change was beneficial to my health, mentally and spiritually. Life is back breaking it is more than hard it is a constant tearing, if you are trying to grow. ∽ Song of the Day
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I love the freedom that comes with honesty "The truth will set you free!" No longer bound by the chains of secrets I let my mouth run wild for a time to ease and clean and soothe the scars Scars left by many nights of tears at the pain my chains brought me. I love how high I can fly Now That I am free. ∽ Song of the DayHold my heart steady baby I'm placing it in your hands. I've been used, abused and tossed aside, but I'm trusting you I see Love in your eyes. I see God in your heart. Ask me for anything and it's yours. I'll do my best to hold you up and love you unconditionally. You have my word. ∽ Song of the DayWe can be here in this moment and it can be everything and nothing because time doesn't stop and I don't care because I know how much it means for you to text me asking where I am because really you wanted us to come together mentally emotionally. This is everything. This is what people ask for and tweet about and here we have it. So hard to achieve because vunerability for people like us is hard sometimes impossible. But people like us see people like us falling apart in the smallest gestures and statements. In the questions that don't mean anything - they mean everything, don't get it twisted. ~ Song of the Day |
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