This was from an art show I was a part of last month. This video was shot and edited by the very talented Maryse Bombito aka MXRYSE Instagram: @mxryse.b Enjoy :)
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I am the strongest person I know So it makes me extremely angry when I can't get this off of me When anxiety has its knuckles wrapped around my throat so tight I can't breath When PTSD slams me back into bed because it would rather see me go hungry than brave the grocery store trip alone. I am the strongest person I know because when the world told me they'd rather have the quiet princess than the broken warrior, I told them, "I didn't get to choose so you don't either." I am broken but mighty, even with tears running down my face and cuts on my wrists I still Get up And go I am the strongest person I know because every time I stood at the top or the edge of Death I stepped back Picked up a pen and wrote until my hands stopped shaking. When my voice quivers while reading my own words aloud I take a deep breath and think, Jade you are the strongest person I know because when the whole world tried to break you, You rebuilt yourself Reclaimed your name and became Seymone. ~ For Your Ears:Last month I had the pleasure of sharing my voice and poems at two events. I was surrounded by talent and inspiration and support for an entire week and it was,
rejuvenating! Here on my site are two poems from that week titled, “Performances”. Enjoy :) ~ CANDY MAN He’s my Now or Later I have him now and I’ll have him later But not in between no Two year timeout from all candy No butter fingers, no nutter butter, No lollipops and no Now or Laters I love candy. I’ve loved candy since I can remember Now or Laters are my favorite. Reintroduced to them a few months ago They’re an old friend of mine with whom I only have fond memories Sweet on the front, sour in the middle, and sweet on the back Just like I like them Now or Laters have so many flavors And I like a candy with options. As a kid I would unwrap as many as I could When I unwrapped them this last time I got a bonus prize. Sometimes I miss the other candies I stroll through the candy aisle Butter fingers and Nutter Butters... (Too much butter) Oh but lollipops! Quick, sugary, with just enough flavor to turn my lips blue (which I hate) But Now or Laters just hit the spot every time Time Two years time No candy Really it’s just the Now or Laters they’ll be gone All the other candy will be here Even the lollipops But I’ll wait two years Cuz Now or Laters are my favorite. ~ For Your Ears:LEAVES The man of my dreams is finally holding me close Although sometimes i get his hands confused for another Not so kind hands With knuckles so strong they broke my spirit Callouses so rough they cut my skin to the white meat So deep, I’m afraid they’ll never heal My virgin Skin was not ready And he did not care And I could not handle it. So I bought a big jar and put it right here Inside the jar were all the tools used against me Each capable of leaving permanent marks Marks that I thought made me Me The trauma Both told and untold The Love Both given and received And The Neglect. Over time this filled all the way to the top. Bursting at the seams You could see it all over my face Mixed and mangled together I ran into the rain and begged God, “Why?” When I showed the jar to my father he said, “I’m sure this is what you wanted.” And my mother agreed. So I smashed that jar like a piggy bank and cashed out On therapy and a lil bag of goodies. Spending all of it on me, myself, and the girl whose virgin skin had been scarred. ... His hands still haunt me but I am Thankful for my own With knuckles strong enough to pick my own damn self up Strong enough to break that jar Nails so sharp they tear up anything in my path to peace Peace of mind, body, and soul So here’s a piece of my mind I’m not going apologize to anyone For how I chose to fix what he broke. But I will say thank u. Thank u, next to my ex Cuz without him we wouldn’t have this poem. ~ For Your Ears: |
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